i’m fulfilled. i have love.

but i feel like i have nothing without our bond.

i thought it was solid.

now i can’t trust myself.

i am wondering how long i can live with the love of others before

i find my own inside.

i just miss my friend.

I guess there’s something to it.

I do, do adore you.

I don’t have to say I’m breathing to know that I’m doing it.

I don’t have to say I’m thinking to know that I’m doing it.

I know.

You know.

That’s all I need.

*youarethemostbeautiful

I think I have been avoiding the fact that I have the power.

And, options.

And, I might like this.

Note to self:  Explore this revelation, and report back.

(*staytuned)

SRSLY.WTF.

I wanted to be honest with you, but then I knew it meant I had to be honest with myself.

I’m not ready for what I know is coming, because I know what comes after that.

And everything is connected.

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you already know with my eyes

you already know under my touch

And you retaliate with your sweet

looks

The touch

and I don’t know how much fight is left…..

Please be mean when you break my heart.

and pretend i’m not exploding inside

trying to show you how cool and sophisticated and graceful

i am

[no]

i’m leaving leaving leaving you

[no]

you will hurt

[no]

and

i will hurt

[yes]

and then there is a new lifetime.

again.

it should not even be like this.

i want to stop struggling.

this is only reserved for the special-est.

<3

i like the way these words sound on my lips:

magnanimous

circuitous

deference

wistful

coalesce

circumspect

*kobayashi maru

petulance

acquiesce

shutting.down.again.

[goodbye]

i like it best when it’s quiet.

and then you make me laugh

and i’ll never understand how to talk to people.

i don’t understand how to not care.

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